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Happy Halloween Everyone!

Welp, I weighed intoday, even though I really didn’t want to, I knew I had gained weight. and….I was right. Only a pound. I know that it’s just a pound, and the scale is just a number, but what concerns me is that I felt like my body was different this week. Like it had stalled and wasn’t continuing in the same pattern.

oops, time to change things up and stick a little closer to my healthy eating plan.

And it’s Halloween. Today is our desert potluck. I already made myself a little plate of treats. I allowed myself3 different treats, cut in half. So I have a little one in square of: chocolate peanutbutter brownie, and pumpkin bar. I had a half of a pumpking chocolate chip cookie, 3 pieces of chex mix puppy chow, and half of a chocolate muffin.  It’s quite a bit, and I might not eat it all. but, I think all totalled up it adds up to much less than I would have had in the past. Also, my plan is to allow myself little bites of it here and there. BUT NO GOING BACK FOR  SECONDS and NO MINDLESS STUFFING MY FACE WITH THREE BROWNIES AT ONCE.

This is a big step for me, to make a concious effort ot not binge on sugar. I’ve never had a doctor tell me that i binge eat but I did. It was not a problem to down 3 or 4 brownies with out even tasting them. ick.

Anyway…Happy Halloween Everyone. Stay safe and healthy!

Well, wednesday his Halloween. I know, it’s big news, no one new.  I’m going to be ok controlling my sefl with the halloween candy in my house.  It’s going to be work wednesday that is hard.

My department is boycotting the company wide party, in lieu of a potluck lunch, we are going about our normal day, but having….POTLUCK DESERT! oh no. And we’ve talked about what we are going to bring, and already it sounds so delcious. Our admin assistant has already brought in her ginger pumpkin bars (um, delicious) for us to try. Oh lord. I ate a whole one, I chose the smallest piece there was, but ate it all. The smarter choice would have been to have half a piece, I def. don’t need a sugar laden treat at 3:30 pm when my blood sugar is crashing as it is, hello spike and then downfall!

Oh well, wednesday, i’m going ot have treats. I don’t believe in deprivation, but moderation? yes, and that will be my challenge.

My eating is slipping down hill. I am doing ok, but not being totally on track. I’m getting enough fiber, and eating plenty of veggies etc, but I’m not doing well on snacking when it isn’t necessary. Halloween candy, has been bad for me. We have an office candy dish, and I do ok, but now it is full of GOOD candy (aka chocolate). I don’t eat too much, just two or three pieces a day, but then I go home and have dinner (always decently healthy, always enough veggies) and then I have my little desert after dinner that I allow myself when I want it.

I’ve been trying to practice intuitive eating, eating when I’m hungry, stopping when I am satisfied, eating what my body wants. I’m doing pretty well, but I know the 2nd and 3rd mini candy bars are not what my body wants (in terms of good healthy whole foods).

So, I’m making a pledge today to get back on track. I’ve already had a small chocolate (sample from the candy man who comes through every other thursday). It’s lunch time and my goal is to not go near the candy dish for the whole afternoon.

On a positive note, i’ve recently discovered Kashi TLC bars. The Pumpkin Spice Flax, is the only flavor I’ve tried. I normally don’t like crunchy granola bars (uh, obviously cause it’s the soft ones that are full of sugar, YUM!) anyway, they are so super good, and Kashi makes really good food. Good tasting and good for you. I’m quickly becoming a Kashi convert (their instant oatmeal is also great, and their frozen dinners are among the healthiest around.)

Well, my weight is at 249 again. Holding there for the past three weeks. The last time my weight stalled for three weeks, the fourth week I lost 3 pounds. We’ll see.

I’m ok with holding, as long as my fitness level improves. I need to keep my vegetable intake up.

My goal is to lose 15 pounds by February 23rd. I can totally do it.

Wow, I am stuffed after lunch today! Oops, should have listened a little better to my tummy!

It’s amazing how much the food journal has helped me. I don’t record every single thing I eat, usualy I leave out 2 or 3 little things per day (i.e after dinner mint, coffee etc) things that add less then 20 calories total. 

I truly think being able to see my breakdown between macronutrients has brought me to a different level of understanding of nutrition!

Today is Love Your Body Day!

woohoo! I love my body because it gets me from point a to point b. It is strong and I can lift heavy things with it. I love my body because it can dance, and run and jump. I  love my body because it’s mine.

I know that we are all on this site to improve our bodies and our health. But don’t forget to love your body now! you’ve already decided that you love your body enough to get healthy, love it all along the way.

why do you love your body?

Well, my girlfriends from college and I have all booked our tickets to vegas in February. wooohoo!

Ok, everyone, that is just about 125 days until I go. My goal is lose another 15 pounds by then. (this is a realistic goal, based on that I have been working out for 11 weeks, and have lost aprox. 15 pounds. It could be more, it could be less, I’m not quite sure what my highest weight truly was. I know for a fact that before we moved I weighed 260, then we moved and I know at one point I weight 263. So…anyway.

It is 18 weeks until our trip! So, I think 15 pounds is a realistic goal. I want to lose 15 more pounds, for a total of somewhere between 25 and 30, and  lose one more clothing size.

It’s a girls weeknd in vegas…you’ve gotta look good!

I hate lunges. I hate them with a passion of a thousand fiery suns.

No really, I hate them. But they are just too damn good for my lower body to not do them!

I went to the “bodypump” class this morning (weights). Wow. it was tough, but not too tough. It was a little rocky as I learned what exercises I had too much weight on my barbell, and some where I didn’t have enough. My arms are def. going to be sore tomorrow. Woo hoo! I’m so excited for these classes! After taking weights today, I can totally do it on monday, even though the teacher intimidates me. Thursdays, on my new plan are going to be treadmill days, and fridays are going to be cardio mix (in hopes of not getting bored). Hey, it’s only wednesday and I alreayd have all of my weights work outs done! woot!

Well, I weighed in, and I haven’t gained, maybe a few ounces, but the scale at the gym doens’t register that. So, im’ going with no weight loss or gain, 249 it is.

Also, I took another step class this morning, lower intensity, but man it still worked me. It was a little bit more my speed though. Less jumping on and around and over the step. MOre dancing. It was great. I really liked it. The instructor was very good, very clear and gave great directions. I am going to take the weight lifting class from her tomorrow. Maybe after taking it once from the non intimidating instructor, then I won’t be so scared of the intense crazy lady. ( I’m not really scared Ash, just intimidated!)

But, it felt good, and I feel good. :)

Well, It’s monday. I chickend out on the weight lifting class. Damn. I know that I shouldn’t have. But that instructor scares the crap out of me. I have a friend in tomorrow and wednesdays classes, so I’ll be sure to go to those.

Also, I did not follow a healthy eating plan this   weekend, ate take out wayy too much, and didn’t eat enough veggies. I’m definetly feeling it today, and feeing bloated! My period should be starting this weekend, although I don’t usually gain or lose weight with my period. Tomorrow is weigh in day, and I will not be suprirsed to see if the scale has gone up. That is ok, I just need to stay on track. I’m not obsessed with calorie counting, or only eating so many points, but I am trying to make a goal of eating healthy,  and this week…was not so hot.

But, I’m not discouraged, Iwant to make this a life change so badly. I want to  be at my healthy weight, where my body settles when i am treating it well.