More to love…

It went ok. I ate cake, I ate, I danced my butt off (well..helping it off) and I drank too much for someone who is trying to be healthy. But it was fun, and I don’t feel guilty about any of it.

I do feel something though. A friend posted some pictures of summer 2005 on the internet, and holy lord I was so much skinnier. I wasn’t thin, probably at that point I wanted to lose weight, but man I looked phenomenal. I probably was about 40-50 pounds lighter than. So, I don’t want to quit, I want to make this thing work. I want to be healthy and hot.  Well, hotter than I am now.

A friend who was part of the wedding, has lost about 50 pounds since I’ve known her. She was much bigger than me when we met, and I always assumed that she would be. I hate admitting that I have such a problem with the fact that she got her act togther and dropped the weight and looks amazing, and i’m bigger than i’ve ever been. It was hard to hear her talk about her size 12 clothes and how amazing she looks. I want to look that way! I want to feel that way! I want to wear a size 12. (I’d settle for something with a ‘1′ in front of it for a mini goal!)

So good night friends, I’m feeling rejuvenated and motivated to do this thing!